Mind, Intellect + Emotions: Wait

I’ve been somewhat surprised at my reaction… or maybe lack of… to this lockdown… I’ve been calm and reasoned, present, connected and hopeful. My anxiety has been low, very low and I am sleeping well. The family is all getting on well and we seem to be enjoying our time together. We get along well most of the time, but these are uncertain and frustrating times for even the closest of families.

Thing is, I’ve felt capable. And even focussed. I haven’t felt chaotic or uncertain. I’ve grieved, like everyone has, for the times when we can go back to normal. When the kids can attend uni, or school balls, or simply hang out with friends. When people are no long staring down the barrel of unemployment, or the loss of businesses that they have spent decades building up with pride and passion.

Yet, here we are. Calm. Present. Grounded.

And finally this morning I put my finger on it.

I am waiting.

Sounds funny right? But it’s true. And, so bloody simple.

I’m happy to be waiting. I’m content with waiting. I’m, dare I say, even enjoying waiting. And here’s why I think that has manifested itself into a calm and soulful state.

Life was busy. Flocking busy. 3 teenagers, a busy mind and jobs. And without thinking about it we, along with you and…